butterflies + ice cream

Hiyo

2006-12-28T20:12:00.000-08:00

been a while...i know for a fact no ones reading this... XD
it's been a good, good christmas....my mom got me a new computer, so I can play around with stuff...(it's an old one, plays only DOS games, but thats good...I'm working on one).
johnny bought me a bunch o' shirts, but was mad to find out that I still wear me ol' red plaid shirt over top anyway...ha ha ha...sucks to be him...i will never shed the plaid outer layer...
i bought johnny a copy of harvey birdman for christmas, but gave it to him early 'cause he was sad... :( i was sad too, his mom died on christmas eve and i really miss her too...
the gift was kinda for both of us, because i love birdman as much as he does...
i said before that my mom was getting married, and im much happier about it now...he actually helped me with my insulin the other day and that was nice...sometimes i have trouble putting the needle in when im sad.

hope everyone has a good new year and had a good christmas (i always spell it chsirtmas the first time!!!)
lance m.

p.s after reading through this, i realise that i sound like a 5 year old!!

Holy Fucking Christ!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-05T19:19:00.000-07:00

How do I tell the difference between his disorder and his goddamn PMS?

"I feel like flipping off every fucking couple I see, holding hands, making out or otherwise and I think Lance is cheating on me" <--- from J's blog.

I fucking can't stand him when he's like this and he'll never even talk to me about this...He can be sweet, I swear but I can't believe he thinks so little of me. I haven't even THOUGHT about another guy/girl since we started dating and I live with the freak for Gods sake. Not like I have spare time. I think he's worried because I'm popular at school and now he's not around to watch me.
Garrr.
My mom's getting engaged. (Nooooooooo)...But the fellow's kind of nice.

I think if J keeps this crap up, it'll be to fraying to my nerves and I'll have to break up with him, but man! I don't want to. :(
l.m.

chaos

2006-01-31T16:47:00.000-08:00

its kind of total chaos...sometimes good chaos and sometimes bad chaos...but its starting to drive me crazy. i think if i didn't have jj, i'd be in a mental hospital...
and i went to see my dad the otherday to collect some cds i left (which makes me collection bigger, an even 700**...) and i think he cracked my ribs. by the time i wanted to hit him back, i couldn't really move my arm. but it feels better, but i hope not broken like the other...(curse you roof).
when i got on the bus and came home everyone was ready for a roadtrip to montreal, so we went and i went to a college orientation. it was fun, and we ate a lot of fast food.
when i got home, my mom was in bed with her boyfriend (ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww). but i don't blame her in theory (if i look like it as an adult) but as her son "ewwwwwwwwww".
my kidneys hurt. :s

l.m

sigh.

2006-01-15T10:23:00.000-08:00

im soooooooo stupid.
i notce that i over-react with dumb thing,but jj and me have never ever fought as a couple, and he gets reeealll snitty when i say stupid things....like "you smell like cheese." or something.
as for the nacho incident, we both took the afternoon off, and i changed in my room while jj changed in the bathroom, cursing at me and probably throwing up his hands and ranting in russian. we both took showers, but he still smelledlike cheese...in a good way. :)

i also got into a video-game tiff with my brother. i SWEAR i have beaten his best fighting average in Soul Caliber 2 (and between you and me, i think he's getting on in age...**21!**). he's to old to play video games. but when i turn 21, the "to-old-to-play" age will go up.

my moms dating again.....gross. his names Mitul, and i think he's a doctor or something.
i wangt her to be happy, but i don't like ity when she stays out to late.
O_o
l.m
*i feel vented*

ARGH

2006-01-11T20:37:00.000-08:00

i think i messed things up with JJ...i know he doesnt handle bigots as well as i can, but i hate it when he hurts people!! and then i yelled at him and im pretty sure he stopped loving me, because i yelled at him once and didn't see him for a month.
nooooooooo
help????
-l.m

woooooooooooot

2005-12-29T12:23:00.000-08:00

just got back from JJ's grampa's funeral. thats not why for the happy title, though. that would probably be really sick. O.o
now i have more cds...its makes 692 with the 5 i just got:
Marilyn Manson - Lest We Forget
System of a Down - Hypnotize
System of a Down - Mesmerize
Pink Floyd - Dark Side of the Moon (a replacement)
stutterfly - A Light in Guinevere's Garden
Blink 182 - Best Hits
and we went to see the Leafs kick ass like they should! (wooooooo)
on xmas eve we were sitting in my room and JJ looked really upset. it happened really fast, but we did it and it was really good, and weird. i have never actually had sex with a guy, but im glad it was him. (of course it was him) i felt comfortable and it felt really right. unlike the first time, with Christine, where I really didn't feel like it was what i wanted to do.
Wow. no capitals. sorry....i'm excited, and about to face JJ in soul caliber 3 (where i'll kick his ass)
-l.m
happy holidays and sorry for a jumpy post...its not meant to sound shallow cause i love him. <3

quizzerjigger

2005-12-08T08:10:00.000-08:00

Name: lance
Birthday: feb 29
Birthplace: hamilton
Current Location: toronto
Eye Color: green
Hair Color: black
Height: 5'11
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: i unno
The Shoes You Wore Today: black converse-alikes
Your Weakness: puppies and kittens
Your Fears: death, bugs are icky
Your Perfect Pizza: bacon, garlic, extra crust ^^
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get smarter (yeah right)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "well..."
Thoughts First Waking Up: where am i
Your Best Physical Feature: people say my eyes >:
Your Bedtime: 11:30 or so
Your Most Missed Memory: rooftop convos.
Pepsi or Coke: diet coke :o
MacDonalds or Burger King: MacDonalds
Single or Group Dates: single's good. you can make-out and its not creepy.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: neither (cry)
Cappuccino or Coffee: flavoured coffee?
Do you Smoke: noooo
Do you Swear: yes (shame)
Do you Sing: yes i do.
Do you Shower Daily: yes i also do.
Have you Been in Love: i AM. <3
Do you want to go to College: yeah
Do you want to get Married: maybe
Do you belive in yourself: sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope. ;)
Do you think you are Attractive: yeah, moderatly, (ego)
Are you a Health Freak: i have to be, in some cases.
Do you get along with your Parents: my mother yes. :)
Do you like Thunderstorms: love them. sit outside in them. unless its cold.
Do you play an Instrument: ohhh yeeaahhhh. guitar. my first and best lover. :)
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes indeedy.
In the past month have you Smoked: no.
In the past month have you been on Drugs: d'oh. yes.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: in fact, i haven't. (creepy)
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: yeah.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes.
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes.
In the past month have you been Dumped: noooo....unless you know something i don't?
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no. end of november, yes. ;D
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: never.
Ever been Drunk: yes.
Ever been called a Tease: also yes. (rolls eyes)
Ever been Beaten up: nooo.
Ever Shoplifted: why would i?
How do you want to Die: i don't!!
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a ROCKA~ (music something)
What country would you most like to Visit: spain, the REAL country/language of love.

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue
Favourite Hair Color: black
Short or Long Hair: w/e
Height: i unno. shorter?
Weight: doesn't matter to me.
Best Clothing Style: goths are sex-ay
Number of Drugs I have taken: erm...one. good ol' lady mary jane.
Number of CDs I own: 687 on the dot. ;) non-burned, no duplicates.
Number of Piercings: 8. mostly on my ears though.
Number of Tattoos: none. yet.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: i dunno. prolly lots.

i commision thee jj...
-l.m

hisss

2005-12-04T12:44:00.000-08:00

i got into a car accident yesterday (minor) and i felt really awful about it, too. then again, the guy who rear ended me was yelling at ME, and i didn't know what to do. i'm scared of getting in conflicts, and arguements, and fights, and i felt like curling up and dying when he was screaming and stuff. he got out of his car and it made me nervous, until jj got out the other side and said something (probably some creative threat) and the guy left me alone.
i think i'll never drive again!

in other news, i got a twinkie today and it rocked my world. it was better then sex!!! (its been three weeks since i last had sugar or something sweet). with the exepction (shit! how is that spelled???) of a can of stuff that i drank last week and misread the label. it made me so so sick. :p
my boring life *shakes head* to be nearly killed by a can of dr. pepper.

l.m

thinking...

2005-10-27T15:59:00.000-07:00

i actually GOT to thinking today, when i was staring out the stupid window in math class (2+2=kiss my ass) etc...
i never could understand how anyone could hate anyone, no matter what they'd done. i've known people i've despised (ooo big word), but i don't think anyone who seriously deserves a death penalty or a curse or something.
i had a friend named matthew in grade 8, and we were really close cause johnny was gone and the three of us had alwasy stuck together. since we were left, just the two of us, we ended having to get closer, and so we stuck it out together for almost a full year. that was when a kid in a higher grade, (no names, i don't like to spread hate) came into the school and tried to do a columbine thing. he shot only one kid, and that was matthew and that was in the head, right in front of me.
of course, i was upset, and i want to see the guy hurt, and maybe locked away forever, but not dead, and i don't hate him. im not heartless, but i believe that he had problems, problems he didn't deal with in a good, healthy way and people can go ahead and hate him if they want, but that doesn't change the fact that matthew is dead and that the kid is screwed up and incarcerated.
this whole thing was brought about by a girl who said "i hate pink," and a few people i've heard recently muttering in my head space, "i hate fags,". i don't get it, really! people aren't bad, but they say bad things, and they do bad things, but i don't think anyone is born that way. born into that way, born and molded that way, but not born guilty.
i promise that there will be ferther things that are stupider than this, and probably a lot less deep. a more entertaining read...to j.j anyway, since he is my only and sexiest visitor.;)
l.m

(oww....to MUCH thinking...posts will prolly be shorter soon)

going with the flow...

2005-10-26T19:13:00.000-07:00

okay, i'll admit right now that my commas and periods may not be in the right place and i suck to ass at spelling, but if j.j has a bloogle (that's what I call 'em) i'll get one too. all the cool boyfriends are doin it...

about me:
name: lance f. maitland
age:17 (wOOt, sexual peak, here i come!) (wow, no pun intended)
birthday: feb 29 (cry)
likes: porn (do not judge me), johnny <3, guitars (Betsy and Marmalade), music, writing music, video games, the internet!
dislikes: math, school, anything that involves thinking too much, bad things, death, things with sugar in it (hiiiisssssss), writing uncomfortable blogs that no one will read :p

thats it for the first one. i hope to god that someone is reading johnny and listening to HIS interesting problems.
love,
lance